Never Too Far

  Never Too Far

  by

  Thomas Christopher

  Copyright © 2012 by Thomas Christopher

  All rights reserved

  Kalmaha Press

  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are either products of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

  Cover Design by Kalen O'Donnell

  For Jessica

  PART ONE

  COUNTRY

  Chapter 1

  Joe slung the rifle strap over his shoulder and pointed, but his older brother Frank didn’t say anything.

  “Don’t you see it?” Joe said. “Right there. Across the river.”

  Frank stepped back suddenly.

  “We need to get out of here,” Frank said. “Someone might still be there.” He looked across the river again. “What’s it doing out here?”

  “It looks abandoned,” Joe said.

  “That doesn’t mean anything.”

  “We got to check it out.”

  Joe moved forward but Frank grabbed his arm.

  “No we don’t,” Frank said. “Besides, you can’t go walking up to it like any old piece of junk. It isn’t something you leave lying around, either. They’re coming back for it, for sure.”

  “All the more reason why we should go see it.”

  “That’s not what I’m saying. I’m saying we shouldn’t mess with it.”

  “Well, I’m going,” Joe said.

  At the river’s edge, Frank snatched the rifle from Joe.

  “I’m leading the way,” Frank said.

  Joe was about to grab the rifle back when Frank jammed the last shell into the open breech. He used his maimed hand, the one missing three fingers, and locked the bolt in place. Joe figured there was no sense in arguing now.

  After they waded across the shallow river, they crouched low and crept up the rocky embankment to the old road. Frank raised his head to take a look, and then Joe poked his head up too.

  “I don’t think this is a good idea,” Frank said. “It’s definitely an Arbyter.”

  Joe couldn’t take his eyes off it. He had never seen a real Arbyter before. What he knew about them came from Frank when he was in the city of Chikowa over a year ago. He said he saw Arbyters patrolling the streets all the time. The way Frank described them made Joe think of a beast on wheels, one with two dark windows in front like menacing eyes and a big machine gun on top like a horn.

  “I’ll go,” Joe said.

  “No, you won’t,” Frank said. “I’m going. Stay behind me.”

  For a moment Frank seemed afraid to go near the vehicle, which was flipped on its side. He stood with his legs spread and the rifle pointed at it as if he thought it might spring to life at any second. He shuffled forward. His wet shoes scraped on the dirt road. When he got close enough to touch the armored underbelly, he stopped. He nudged his foot against the scratched and dented metal. Then he stepped back, ready to fire, ready for it to finally awaken and show its true self. When it didn’t move, he took his maimed hand off the rifle and motioned toward Joe.

  “Come on,” he whispered. “Stay behind me.”

  Joe jumped to his feet and hurried to his older brother who was rounding one of the Arbyter’s huge front tires. Joe couldn’t resist brushing his fingers along the tire’s thick tread or touching the fang-like spokes in the grill on his way past. But the very second he turned the corner and saw the top of the Arbyter, he pulled up short. It was much stockier than what he imagined. It looked like the head of a giant iron bull. The dark eyes staring out from the squat cab were cracked and pitted from bullet fire, and the machine gun’s long barrel was wedged tight in the ground.

  Frank hung the rifle over his shoulder, climbed onto the machine gun, and heaved himself up onto the Arbyter’s side. Once he got to his feet, he jabbed the rifle tip through an open window, or perhaps it was an open door. Joe didn’t know because he couldn’t see that high.

  “Come up and look inside,” Frank said. “I’ll keep an eye out.”

  Joe scampered onto the machine gun and crawled up near Frank’s feet. Painted on the Arbyter’s door was the symbol of the Guardian Party, the ruling government in Chikowa. The symbol was a seven-pointed red star with a white ring in the middle and a red circle inside like a bull’s eye.

  “See if there’re any dead soldiers in there,” Frank said.

  Joe got on his stomach and ducked his head inside the open window. He braced himself for a gory sight, but he didn’t see any of the dead soldiers Frank was afraid of. Instead, he saw some kind of reddish-black substance splashed all around. He reckoned it was probably blood. He looked over the instrument panel, gazed at the cracks in the tinted windshield, and then craned his neck to look behind the seats. Nothing was there as far as he could tell.

  On his way out, he gripped the steering wheel and even jiggled it once before he let go.

  After he sat up, he said, “No bodies, but there’s blood.”

  “They must’ve evacuated already.”

  “What do you think happened? Do you think it was attacked?”

  “If it was, we wouldn’t be standing here.” Frank looked around like he was expecting someone to be there. “Let’s get down.”

  Frank shouldered the rifle and shimmied down onto the machine gun. Joe began to follow him but then he thought of something.

  “Hey,” he said. “I bet it still has fuel.”

  Joe scooted to the back end of the Arbyter to look for the fuel plate. As soon as he found it, he pried it open, unscrewed the cap, and stuck his nose into the open cylinder. He took a big whiff. The smell of the fumes made his eyes water. It still had fuel. He couldn’t believe it. He stared at Frank standing on the ground below.

  “Get down from there,” Frank said.

  “How much do you think it’s worth?”

  “How should I know? I don’t even know how much is in there.”

  Joe was going to find out. He looked into the woods and spotted a big fallen limb. He leapt off the Arbyter, forgetting how high up he was, and stumbled hard to his knees. But the drop barely fazed him. He ran to the fallen limb, planted his foot on it, and snapped off a long thin branch.

  “What are you doing?” Frank said. “Are you crazy?”

  Back at the Arbyter, Joe clambered up to the fuel tank. He dipped the stick into the opening and fed it down the pipe as far as it would go. The smell rushed up into his nose again. He pulled the stick out to find it half-soaked with diesel.

  “There’s like half a tank.”

  “Let me see that,” Frank said.

  Joe handed the stick down to Frank.

  “You know how much this is worth?” Frank said.

  “I already asked you that.”

  “It was at ten thousand shekels when I was in Chikowa.”

  “So you were lying.”

  “So what? That might not even be right.”

  “You think that’s close, though?”

  “It’s got to be. This is like gold.”

  “Why don’t we sell it?”

  “Don’t be nuts. We get caught with this, we’ll be executed. It’s illegal to have. You know that. Forget about it.” Frank threw the stick into the woods. “Put that cap back on and get down from there.”

  “I’m serious,” Joe said.

  “Get it out of your head because it’s not happening.”

  “I could do it.”

  “What did I just say? No way.”

  “But you went.”

  “And look what happened to me.” He shoved his maimed hand up at Joe. “You aren’t going. I’m not going. Nobody’s going. Got it?”


  Once they crossed the river, they walked through the wooded bluffs and down into the valley where Joe’s family farm stood. Even though it didn’t look much different from any other farm Joe had seen, he knew it was a ramshackle wreck. The stark buildings were aged and weathered. The splitting wood was streaked gray and black. Off to the side of the barn was a rickety fence that held the little livestock they had left—a wooly goat, two spotted hogs, some chickens, and the horses, Lester and Sam. Beyond that was a field of limp corn and a garden of scraggly vegetables. The house leaned to one side as if it was constantly trying to hang on against a fierce wind. Broken windows were covered in plastic or scraps of wood. It was a wonder anyone lived there.

  Chapter 2

  Joe’s family was gathered around the kitchen table, except for Mom. She was lying in bed recovering from one of her episodes where her mind got all jumbled. The room was hot and the air musty. Despite the open window above the sink and the open back door, there was no breeze to speak of. The heat stayed trapped and settled its heavy weight in the kitchen.

  The silence was nearly unbearable. Joe shoved his fingers through the front of his hair. Sweaty strands stood up like pieces of straw.

  “And you didn’t see anyone else there?” Dad finally said.

  “We searched all over,” Frank said. “We didn’t see a thing.”

  Dad raked his fingers through his gray beard. A fly glided past his shoulder and landed on the table.

  Joe could hardly stand it anymore. Why was Frank taking so long to reveal the most important thing?

  “It’s got half a tank of diesel in it,” Joe blurted.

  Frank shot Joe a scornful look, but Joe didn’t care.

  “We got to get it before someone else does,” Joe said. “It’s worth a fortune according to Frank.”

  “Leave me out of this,” Frank said.

  “We got more mouths to feed. You said it yourself, Dad.”

  Joe looked at the pregnant orphan girl. The top of her swollen belly peeked above the table like a loaf of bread. She lowered her head to the point where her chin pressed tight against her collarbone. Her long yellow hair hung around her face like a shroud. Mom said her baby could come at any time now. The girl was only fourteen, two years younger than Joe. She never spoke as far as he knew. Sometimes you didn’t even know she was there, and you were surprised to see her suddenly even though she’d been there the whole time.

  “You said the money Frank got from the city won’t last,” Joe continued. “All we got is this burnt up land that doesn’t have much more to give. That’s what you said. That diesel could be our salvation.”

  “It’s a crime,” Dad said. “If they find it on us, it’s a death sentence. No questions asked.” He combed his beard. “Besides, it’s against the Word of Virid.”

  “Come on,” Joe said. “We would be stupid not to. Where else could we get that kind of money?”

  Dad shook his head. “Forget about it. It’s wrong. Just leave it. And pretend we never knew about it.”

  “But—”

  “You heard him,” Frank interrupted.

  “But what’s going to happen to us without more money? Don’t you see what I’m saying?”

  “Virid will provide,” Dad said. “We’ll have enough to feed ourselves.”

  “For how long? What happens when the last of our livestock is gone? When Lester and Sam are gone? Then what? What about the orphan girl and her baby? What about Mom and her mind getting more and more scrambled?”

  “And money is going to solve that?” Dad said. “What does money buy us out here, anyway? There is nothing to buy. Don’t you get that? There is hardly anything left. It’s dried up. The town’s dried up. The ground’s dried up. The wind picks it up and carries it away. It’s gone, and it isn’t coming back, ever.” He stopped and scratched at his beard, digging and clawing into the bushy thicket. “There’s no point,” he said.

  “So you want to just give up,” Joe said.

  “That’s enough!” Frank said.

  Joe stormed out of the kitchen and went to the barn. He left the doors open and a long shaft of light sunk deep into the interior. It coated the rusty steel on the pickup wagon and brightened the strips of yellow straw stamped into the barn’s dirt floor. Dust floated in the air, which smelled of manure and rot. Joe plopped down on an overturned bucket beside the gate to the horses’ pen.

  This was his chance to help his family, Joe thought. This was his time, just like Frank had helped when he went to Chikowa to work in the steel mill. If Joe could figure out a way to sell that diesel, he could change his family’s future. They wouldn’t have to give up like all the rest. They wouldn’t have to admit defeat and live as dregs in the city’s slums, where their lives would be no better than rats, according to Frank, where they’d have to work backbreaking jobs every day just to feed themselves, where they’d be under threat of abuse or imprisonment at any time, where poor dregs like them would have to sell their organs or limbs or unborn babies just to survive. Is that what Frank wanted? Is that what his family wanted? To slowly shrivel up out here and then crawl into the city and waste away there?

  Besides, Dad didn’t know what he was talking about when he said money couldn’t buy anything out here. That wasn’t the point. He was just getting bitter. Although it was dangerous, they could travel north again and buy wooly goats and spotted hogs from the Hickaba tribes. They could even go to the city for that matter and get supplies there. The money would give them options. That was the point. And Joe didn’t care about disobeying the Word of Virid. He didn’t care if he was stealing. Maybe that diesel was a gift from Virid, and it would be wrong to refuse it.

  After a while, Frank appeared at the barn door. His figure looked like a shadow against the bright column of light streaming in.

  “I can do it,” Joe said.

  “It’s not happening. Get it through your thick head.”

  “You went.”

  “I went there to work. And you’d be going there to sell diesel on the black market. Something that will get you killed if you get caught. That’s a big difference.”

  “I don’t care what you say.”

  “How are you going to do it, then?”

  “I don’t know.”

  “It’s not worth it, Joe. It’s not worth the risk. We’ll make it.”

  “Be honest. You really think we’ll make it, especially with the orphan girl and her baby? Be honest.”

  Frank didn’t say anything.

  “See.”

  “See, nothing. Face the facts. It’s like Dad said. You’ve seen the size of the dusters that have been blowing through here now. We’re not dirt-eaters for nothing. This is going to be dead land. Whether we get rich off that diesel or not, you can’t live off dead land.”

  “You know where we’ll end up.”

  “And that’s worth your life?”

  “I won’t get caught.”

  “Don’t count on it.”

  “So you’re saying we’re supposed to wait until we’re skin and bones and have to drag ourselves into the city just to survive?”

  “At least we’ll all be together.”

  “I don’t believe you.”

  “It’s the truth.”

  “You said you would never go back there.”

  “If it’s the only choice we have, I’ll go,” Frank said.

  “But it’s not the only choice. Let me take the diesel.”

  “No.”

  “I’ll do it anyway. You and Dad can’t stop me.”

  “Don’t be an idiot.”

  “I’m doing it. It’s my turn.”

  “Your turn? This isn’t a game. You don’t have any idea what’s out there.”

  “Try and stop me.”

  Frank shook his head. “How? You can’t just walk in there with it. There are guards and police everywhere. Chances are you wouldn’t even make it that far. And even if you did, you’re only a worthless dirt-eater. They’ll do you like they did
me.”

  “I can do it.”

  “Listen to me. You want to know what happens to you out there? You get massacred. Sometimes for no reason. In the forest I saw busted-up trailer wagons and pickup wagons strewn along the side of the road with the dead bodies of morons just like you. They weren’t just dead either. They were chopped up and scattered on the road. Severed arms, legs, heads, hacked-up bodies. Guts spilled out. That’s what it means out there.”

  Chapter 3

  Frank led the way through the dark woods. The alcohol lantern swayed from the only finger on his maimed hand. The light cast a yellow glow that brushed against the tree trunks and splashed on the ground. It made the darkness seem blacker beyond the lantern’s shaking light. A possum’s pink eyes gleamed like something alien before it scuttled away. Joe clutched the five-gallon bucket with the rubber hose inside.

  “Did you talk to the girl?” Frank said.

  “I talked to her. She nodded her head like she understood. But I don’t know if she did or not.”

  “This is crazy,” Frank said.

  The day before, Joe finally got Frank to consent to his plan of taking the diesel into the city. During the night a small duster had blown through and showered everything with a layer of gritty dust. They’d been in the vegetable garden brushing the dust off the meager plants. Frank carefully cleaned off all the limp leaves with a damp rag and picked off the dead withered ones, while Joe hurried from plant to plant and from row to row. It wasn’t like it mattered anymore. He no longer felt his family’s life depended on the survival of these barely living plants. The diesel would be their savior. He knew it. He felt it. He had to convince Frank.

  “That just goes to show how dumb you are,” Frank said. “The black market isn’t a real place.”

  “What is it, then?”

  “It’s a secret.”

  “Then how do you know?”

  “Everybody knows. It’s not that kind of secret. It’s a secret because it’s a crime.”

  “Think of the money. Think of it. We could buy enough food to keep us here even if everything does dry up and go dead. Maybe we could go northwest to the ‘promised lands’ like other people. You know what they say. Water flows from the mountains and all kinds of food hangs from the trees for the taking.”